AHHHHHHHHHhhhhh!!! Jay is back and in action. Jeez i totally forgot I even had one of these things. Alright so here's what I need. I am on the hunt looking for my boy, Long Hai Lam. Me and Long talked mavs every day and now have a void that is hard to fill. If anyone has Long's SN, email, heck address that would be nice. I'm gonna find LL.

Alright so lets see....... So so much to update. Alright so I'm out at the U of A (university of arkansas) rockin that. It's cold like a beast out here. I was walking to my finals in snow and the weather was no lie, 5 degrees at 7:30 this morn when I was walking. Just like last year, the mavs are holding it down, starting to get a little respect from analyst and what not. Still single but talking to someone out in Carrollton. oh right. Yeah so I moved from Irving to Carrollton.... it really has been a long time. Alright well def leave me some comments cause its been so long, no pun on the Long thing. anyways yeah someone find me freakn Long Lam. Aight Facebook me too sweet. See you guys at Christmas, def wanna hang out with everyone I can.

                  - Mr. J

Alright so I guess a lot has happened since the last time I said anything, but rather than bore you with stories of how i nearly got sent to jail, or the journey that our guys basketball took, or how i got straight A's two six weeks in a row. i know your all sooo proud of me.

Alright so as of now i am listening to Underoath- Reinventing Your Exit, you can listen to it at purevolume.com/underoath anyways despite that underoath is remotely screamo i've grown to be quite a fan. I guess once you get used to the screaming it actually sounds good.

Alright college update. still waiting on scholarship information from Mizzou so i still cant make a decision, I really think mizzou is the better fit for me but not if the family cant afford it. ill gladly go to Arkansas i have nothing against it but I really do think mizzou is where i want to go.

Umm....lets see i'm living single, I finally saw Garden State (starring Natalie Portman) which was excellent and this wed. im going to see Closer which ive waited a long long time to see, and if you didnt know Natalie Portman was up for best supporting actress in it.

Oh yeah I'm moving. Going to be living in Carrollton in bout two weeks, so if i can crash at your house and then go to school the next day until schools over that would be great. Obviously im not going to over stay my welcome ill try to float from house to house like a hobo or such.

Alright well since i havent wrote in such a long time im expecting a good deal of posts..... so get writing.

Alright so I had a great day. Just went nice and smooth, Kat and Allison brought me some orange juice, very good. Lets see, I played some pretty good golf today which is great to hear because its been a long time since I played well and what better timing cause we leave Friday morning for Abeliene. oh my its soooo fun. Now when the golf team goes on the road we play a certain game and this year is no exception, I plan to dominate in our little golf ritual. K....ummmm oh yeah IHS Tigers won the freakn City Championship in Basketball which means what? oh thats right we get a first round bye and if we happen to win it will be the first time we go to the third round since like thirty years ago. We're going to win state, and if we dont Ill get my Technical on the way out of the building. Alright my other boys. The mavs are completely hot right now even though Stack is out, Quis is out, and Damp is going to be out. Its going to be real hard to beat the Suns come tommara but hey we are darn good so just add another W.

Here's a pic of me and Nick doing the Announcing at the Basketball game.

^ Such a sweet guy. (me not nick)

A Thorn For Every Heart: The Prediction

Watch this slow death,
Rewind this up,
Rewind this up for good.

Pulled out from under,
Your crashing your cover now,
(Oh, were feeling lost in the dark.)

It's the end of it all,
We know it's only our(my) fault.

Pulled out from under,
Your crashing your cover now,
(Feeling lost in the dark.)

Trapped in the wreckage,
Surrounded by part of the friends I lost,
I'm watching you all,
I'm trying to call out but I just can't,
(Provide the words.. that you're longing for..)

My soul is leaving my body behind,
I'm trying just to talk to you,
Why, why, this is the end of my life,
I didn't get to talk to you.

You cry at the funeral,
I'm crying above you.

The wind on your face,
And the rain on your back,
I'll be there, I'll be with you.

Watch this slow death,
Rewind this up,
Rewind this up for good.

Pulled out from under,
Your crashing your cover,
(Oh, we're feeling lost in the dark.)

It's the end of it all,
We know it's only our(my) fault.

Pulled out from under,
Your crashing your cover,
(We're feeling lost in the dark.)

Now we're floating away [x2]
And we're floating away (away, away...)
The fears I've had are floating away
The dreams I've had have come to pass [x2]

Mavs Won. IHS is going to state. thats pretty much all that needs to be said. but guess what I'm gonna do you a favor and leave you lyrics to a sweet song by a sweet band.

HIDDEN IN PLAIN VIEW:

         GARDEN STATEMENT

The traffic's backed for miles
on these quiet suburban roads
while the rubbernecking strangers
are dieing to see these victims wounds
cause he’s all alone
his notebooks and poems
well there’s something grave
where he wrote about this secret
that became his lyrics of no intent to show

[Chorus:]
well we give we get
but it's all for nothing
its all for nothing
we try we insist
that i gave everything
but its all for nothing

so the panic sets and cycles
his mind for restless sleep
and while the bloodsucking leeches
contaminate every line they read
just leave him alone in this dark room
this white sheet, his tightly wrapped cocoon

cause its no secret
I fucking need this
Like I don’t need anyone

[Chorus x2]

It's like I’m falling asleep with my eyes open
shutting down and off the lights
cause after all of this it’s all or nothing
still I wouldn’t try to

I’ll fall asleep with my eyes open
shutting down and off the lights
cause after all of this it’s all or nothing
still I wouldn’t try to fight

So let me drown so I can breathe again
I’m through choking and suffocating
on alter egos and alter motives
just weigh you down and take control of
the way you are and the things that you need
the life you live and the dreams that you dream
sudden blur all in slow motion
they broke down and now your broken
it’s sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
so I stopped watching I stopped caring
I lost all interest and I stopped wearing
these plastic smiles I’ve washed my hands clean
forget that you forgot about me
and I’m living like the big city feeling
it’s better than suburban dreaming

I'm believing all the claims that angels
talk shit on me
Like I don't know who
My real friends are anymore
Don’t wanna know you anymore

and it’s sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
so I stopped watching I stopped caring
spilling ink and spill your guts again

fall asleep with my eyes open
shutting down and off the lights
cause I feel all of this is all or nothing
still I wouldn’t try to fight